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This so perfectly describes that thing that happens sometimes, where I catch myself driving in my hometown and it feels like if I turn left then left again, I could walk into a high-school friend's house both as 17-year old me and 43-year old me at the same time. The holding of two different worlds in the same moment.

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Yes!!! As I get older I completely understand why adults in my life say things like "I might be 65 but I feel like I'm 21!" I was always like "ooooook...." but yeah, no, I'm 16 years old some days, and 7, and 24, and 30, and 36.

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so so good Nicole <3

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Thank you! Got it on hold at the library. So glad to have found your substack from Lisa Olivera’s newsletter today.

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Yes!!! To library hold list, my favorite thing. P.S. Thank you so much for the rec, Lisa!

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Would you mind sharing the title of the Redwoods book, please? I would probably be in jail at this point had they cut that tree down at my place. Thank you!

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Yes! It's GHOST FOREST: Racists, Radicals, and Real Estate in the California Redwoods by Greg King. I'm partway through. It's so upsetting and also just quite good.

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"Bury me at the Sundance salad bar" - perhaps they need a sticker...

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Happy New Year!

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This made my heart ache in the opening sort of way. Thank you for sharing.

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This was just a lovely evocation of that slipping back and forth in time that can happen without provocation.

Also, “I prefer to stay in a place of unknowning that lets me enjoy the poetry of the thing” YES! The drive know and to go down rabbit holes for further knowing and yet to also want to hold on to those sparkling aspects of things unknown.

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